I have been working with him all year. He is content to fail. I am not content to allow it. And slowly he has begun to work with me, to turn in assignments, and to succeed.
Now he was sitting in the office and I had taken him there. The day before a girl went home with an eye injury from a thrown object in a room with a substitute teacher. He did not throw the object that did the damage, but he was one of the throwers. Now he has been giving a colleague trouble all morning, is reported to have threatened her, and I have caught him with a pocketful of air-soft bb’s, the same thing he was throwing yesterday. The other teacher comes in and starts reporting her problems with him. He figures out he really is in trouble and begins to become angry. He remains seated but his fists double up. I have warned him repeatedly that as a large black male, he cannot afford displays of anger in our system.
Now, I have a problem as a prosecutor. He needs rescuing again, and nobody else in the school or his home is available. There has been precious little evidence that anyone stands in his corner to be there. The two teachers now accusing him are the two people who have done the most to try to reach him. And, he is about to blow it. Another suspension will eliminate any chance he has to finish the year successfully. So, I step over and softly but firmly remind him that he is making fists and guaranteeing more serious consequences. He slowly, as if with true effort, uncoils both hands and sits there with both arms out hands open palms up. As I left him there sad, wrong, but prepared to cope and return another day, I wondered. Does my savior feel this way with me? Rescuing again, uncoiling my anger, showing me the way back from my own failure again, and again? (He made it through the situation.)
Then today there is a young lady, poor achievement levels and grades, but polite and hard working. She works for me, does the assignments, struggles for test points and adds extra credit when she can. Her voice is seldom heard above the more boisterous members of her class. We are finishing two days of sharing “How to” essays with the class. We have heard a long string of papers on how to cook, play sports, or earn good grades. I see that she has a paper ready and call her forward to ask, “What are you going to teach us how to do?”
How to kill a monkey! Apparently if one comes home to find a monkey in the house, it is wise to acquire two bananas and a baseball bat. After luring the monkey into the living room and giving him one banana you will be able to dispatch him with the bat. Then you can eat the second banana in peace!
I laughed until I cried. Her grammar still needs work and her paper is not the neatest. It is even questionable under my rules for “school appropriate topics.” But, it is my favorite. She has made my week with her burst of creative humor. And I wonder if my Savior ever feels the same? As he works with my slow learning, re-learning, and hope for extra credit, do I ever make him laugh? I wonder.
peace